Lately I have become aware of that I find it bothersome to relate to my daydreams; those imaginations that spontaneously fill our minds and which are grand movies portraying a future which often seems too good to be true. Most of us renounce these imaginations as some utopia that will never happen. Why risk embracing those daydreams when we have been disappointed so many times before? In the midst of this wrestle with my own personal imaginations I have sensed how the Spirit has urged me to dare to take the next step and begin to take these images more seriously as if they are a part of my oneness with God.
The following is an extract from a mail from my good friend Fred Pruitt (we had an exchange going on about desire):
“What does occur in the stillness is image (imagination) or sight (vision). Then in that image or sight, out of the depths of the formless unground, there is a going out, or a movement, to become or manifest, or to make palpable what to that point is only potential possibility. A desire to BE! What does the Father (or unground in this scenario) see and want to BE? The SON!”
Here we seemingly has the answer to my own struggle, because those ‘daydreams’ that occasionally fill my mind come out of the depth of the formless unground, out of the stillness of God, that is, as a person in God’s likeness they come out of my stillness always preceding my desires. If we are to be whole persons these imaginations are not to be renounced, but are to be a source of marvel and accepted as an forever outgoing of love from God’s stillness. Interpreted by the Spirit they will be a source of hope and faith about something God desires to see manifested in a future now in this temporal realm.
A verse that has come to me the last couple of days is: “Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us” (Eph 3:20). Not only does this verse confirm my musings, but it also hints at that we often are far too defensive in our expectations. This is the secret: “His power at work within us.” Can it be said more lucidly? ALL that we ask or imagine origin in Him! But, somehow our expectations do not match what our Papa desires to give. Why this mismatch? The Spirit daily prompts us to possess our possessions, but due to some sort of false humility on our part we oppose ourselves and are reluctant to wade further into the river.
Concerning expectations let us have a look at 2 King 13: “Then he said, “Take the arrows,” and the king took them. Elisha told him, “Strike the ground.” He struck it three times and stopped. The man of God was angry with him and said, “You should have struck the ground five or six times; then you would have defeated Aram and completely destroyed it. But now you will defeat it only three times.” (v 18-19). It might seem like there is a rather strict correlation between our expectations and what we will receive. Of course, when this is said we apparently are stuck in a paradox on account of that verse from the Ephesians which evidently says the opposite, but nevertheless calls us to become more daring in our expectations and requests.