The sole obedience required of the believer is the obedience of faith. It doesn’t mean a lot of things we have to “obey” or do. But, it does mean that we have to believe in spite of feelings and appearances. Paul says that our believing is a result of hearing by the word of God (Rom 10:17 KJV). Not everything we receive is the word of God. We recognize His word because it edifies and encourages and reveals His abundance of grace and infinite love. But, most importantly it assures us that everything in our life is Him! The prime obstructions we encounter in regards to appropriating the truth as revealed in His word are emotions and feelings which contest our true standing in Him. Do not despair when those emotions surface. They are His means of settling us further in the magnificent union reality.
There are periods in our life when we struggle with feelings and emotions which go against us, that sense that we are of no use, that we have lost all our friends, that we are alone and that we ourselves are merely ourselves. We gather them together and recognize their source, and we know they are sent our way by a notorious liar. Those lies that make us feel miserable and useless manifest themselves as feelings, emotions and reactions. They do not originate in our inner self, the I Am who is joined to God’s I AM. What we learn through them, though, is that those miseries we encounter in that outer soul and body level God uses to settle us in Himself – we become practiced in recognizing that those periods of afflictions are Him as well. Through those encounters we learn to differentiate between outer body and soul reactions, which can tear us to pieces, and our inner still self, our spirit, where we and He are one.
How do we enter that obedience of faith? Right in the midst of our disturbing emotions we affirm God’s word to be true; that we are infinitely valuable, that God lives in us and that we and He are joined as one. We may not feel it, it may appear as nothing to us, but we continue to confess it from our center where we know that the union is a settled fact. Our center is that place where we know despite conflicting emotions in our outer soul level. Obedience of faith is to never doubt our union with our Father – that He comes through in a multitude of ways in our lives.
We do not fight those thoughts or emotions which are contrary to the word which try to convince us that there somehow still is a part of us which isn’t His. We just replace them by turning our attention in a different direction. This might be a continual confessing until the Spirit knows the right moment has come and settles us in the truth and we just know it has to be so. What God says about us is the truth and the reality which a developed inner awareness will confirm. As our attentiveness increases to the glorious fact that we are one with Him we learn to refer all those disturbing emotions to Him and we expect Him to establish us on a higher level of awareness regarding how He comes through in our lives always with the purpose of persuading the world that He has reconciled it to Himself.
Enrolled in the school of the Spirit we learn to refuse to accept condemnation and guilt which come to us from the outside. We continue to pick up ourselves in faith when we are tempted to leave His highway of truth, and we discover in the course of our faith journey that He has leveled that highway so that our walk can be effortless and smooth in Him where we draw from His recourses and power. We continue to say against appearances that we are crucified with Him, that sin has no dominion over us, that we have crucified the flesh with all its lusts, and we confirm that we are His through and through.
Those disturbing soul emotions which contest the union are in reality a mirror which casts back nothing but distorted reflections of who we are in Him. We easily think that those emotions, reactions and feelings which we manifest are merely us, but they are Him. God has meant them for our and the worlds benefit. If you visit a hall of mirrors which mirrors are manipulated your image will be distorted. You are either very tall, petit, thick or thin. However, you have seen your true image in a regular mirror so you know that those mirrors do not reflect the truth, and you haven’t forgotten your true reflection so you just laugh at those parodies of you. If everything you have ever seen is skewed mirrors then you do not know your true image and confusion and insecurity regarding how you really look like will govern your life. The word of God is our true image testifying of our genesis and perfection in Him. The point is; you look like Christ when you glance in the mirror. Those distortions try desperately to tell you otherwise – that somehow there is a part of you which the Spirit doesn’t possess.
“By being a mere spectator in the audience you underestimate yourself (you come to an inferior conclusion about who you really are). You are God’s poem, let His voice make poetry of your life! The difference between a mere spectator and a performer is that both of them hear the same voice and perceive in its message the face of their own genesis reflected as in a mirror; they realize that they are looking at themselves, but for the one it seems just too good to be true, he departs (back to his old way of seeing himself) never giving another thought to the man he saw there in the mirror. The other one is mesmerized by what he sees, he is captivated by the effect of a law that frees man from the obligation to the old written code that restricted him to his own efforts and willpower” (James 1:22-25 Mirror)
Do not allow those emotional mountains reign in your life which shouts that you somehow are apart from God, that some emotions are more noble than others and that you have somehow fallen out of the union due to feelings and reactions which you have problems associating with God. Devastate their impact by obeying Jesus’ word: “For verily I say unto you, That whosoever shall say unto this mountain, Be thou removed, and be thou cast into the sea; and shall not doubt in his heart, but shall believe that those things which he saith shall come to pass; he shall have whatsoever he saith.” (Mark 11:23)
Norman Grubb said: “How did God make man? A living soul, we are told, in His own image: that is to say, with all the attributes of a personality. A man feels and desires: he thinks, he wills, he speaks, he acts. All these marvelous combine to make a person; but the point is that in themselves they are neutral powers. They are neither good nor evil: they are the raw material of human nature, the mighty forces directed to weal or woe by the spirit that is in man.” (The Law of Faith). There is a right use and there is a wrong use of all our wonderful faculties. Indwelt by the Spirit of God they are members “as instruments of righteousness unto God.” (Rom 6:13)